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imthecaptiannow
02:34
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I built a boat that could change my life
Tryna tread waters they did me wrong fore I could get it right
Blowing stress right out the window
I’ll smoke the whole zip fore they make me lose my temper
You won’t ever see me fall apart
Ten toes down til I’m six feet below the rocks
I poured the whiskey shots right on the top
Saw myself sinking fore I even had left the dock
I never said I was a sailor
I never said I was a sailor
Three holes in the boat my crew swimming in my failure
I never said I was a sailor
I never said I was a sailor
Three holes in the boat im findin more as I panic
I never said I was a sailor
I guess Im learnin as I go
burned at every turn I’m just reaping what I sow
The world froze ya now your shoulders
turn all my tears to snow
Trust em with the boat theyll sink it just to gloat
I guess They always do
I feel the grief get to mourning when I talk to you
I let you captain now you actin like you own it too
Ill call it practice this a lesson that was over due
I never said I was a sailor
I never said I was a sailor
Three holes in the boat my crew swimming in my failure
I never said I was a sailor
I never said I was a sailor
Three holes in the boat im findin more as I panic
I never said I was a
fuck it
I guess im learning as I go
learned to love myself now i see who don’t
That’s a breathe of fresh air cold H2O
Never said I was a sailor but it’s my damn boat
pull that bitch right out the bay for us
To board our compass best have the same morals
I guess I’m not a sailor
Three holes in the boat watch the captain patch the damage
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2. |
home
01:13
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Comin to grips with shit I minimized
Like…Who leaves their child with a pedophile
A man choked me in front my mother
I thought I was safe the whole time
Police here to arrest a loved one
I’m mad that I even cried
I’m comin to grips with shit I minimized
Figure I should do it before twenty five x2
Stomach ill from all the pills gettin the belt after dinner for not eating all my meal
They diagnosed me and peeled like prescriptions all in one no coping skills with this deal
Im comin to grips with shit I minimized
Figured I should do it before twenty fivex2
I think the people who hurt me the most remind me of home
And I gotta stop going back home to build my own
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3. |
spare no ammount
01:38
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Would you love me if I’m rich
Would you hate me if I’m down
If you love me when I spend I’d spare no amount
I’d spare no amount
am I social cus I moved?
Matter fact bitch I’m anxious talkin to you
Matter fact bitch I hate crowded rooms
I love to be heard but I hate to be in view spent my life round strangers
Ask you my favorite color you couldn’t name it
New home every three years whats stable?
New me every three years I’m still changing
The moment I feel at home the shits taken
Now I’m scared of isolation
My earliest shit was searching for validation
Let my worth match youre budget
Tell ‘em to kick rocks? I’d rather kick the bucket x2
Would you love me if I’m rich
Would you hate me if I’m down
If you love me when I spend I’d spare no amount x2
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My mental health got me questioning my sanity
Choose a vibe for the day is it depressed numb or panicky
Lay in bed until I’m late for work
staring at my phone like distractions gon erase the hurt
Compare myself til I’m minimized
Spit in the face of that man in the mirror
I aint shaved since late July
But Lets just act like I’m doing fine
Is it failure or is it zenith
I press these questions in my head they wake me when I’m sleeping
Wasted time chasing food can’t believe I ain’t eating
The weight of all the what ifs will break me every evening
I’m on a trip in my living room
shit
Cop a zip come to grips with what I’ve lived through
I been on the edge just one more push might make a break through
you lived what I lived just one more push might fucking break you
Got me questioning my sanity
Bracing for the hurricane got a notebook for a canopy
Got me questioning my sanity
Too many leaches in this bitch Man I found some in my family
Empathys earned on the first
Life’s a buffet but I can’t pay what the plates are worth
Blame my existence like i asked for birth
Blame my existence like i asked for birth
Got me questioning my sanity
Choose a vibe for the day is it depressed numb or panicky
I’m still questioning my sanity
Bracing for the hurricane got a notebook for a canopy
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5. |
new skill
01:09
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I got These tired eyes That so badly wanna see my dreams
got this bruised ego that finds problems within everything
I’d gladly take the fame but only if respect with it
be in law school right now if a bigger check did it
Can’t make rap into a sandwich
But I go ham cus I’m famished
Eating off the bread I can manage
might starve before fall I’m nawing on the canvas
A few pills prescribed by the psych doctor
Bro that’s a…
Don’t ask me for help I don’t give a fuck
Y’all fucked me when I was fucked so fuckin deal w ur fuckin up
Von voyage hoe dont excuse me for my French
Im finally in the game sip that water on the bench
There’s no prize when you survive I hope I find one in the end
Hope I don’t look back and still think that life’s a bitch
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6. |
runtz
01:46
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Just Say action and watch the stunts
I don’t ever feel the pressure lil bitch I’m smoking runts
Hit the backwood do some dubs
I Always show the difference from what it is to what it was
stuck a toe in the waters now ya whole leg freezing
I been swimming in this bitch for a god damn season
Collect info and gossip yall Cold War beefing
Ill Deliver to your doorstep and send subs cheesing
This a perfect stage for acting up
Lights camera action shootin sequels get directors cuts
Darwin how the bars win you ain’t better your irrelevant
Survived inside the circus big stepping like an elephant
Mello-yellow but I’ll yell abit
Climbing to the top and you ain’t coming like you cellebit
My city making felons quick
the system failed us all They pass the ball and we keep playing catch
Manifest what I said talk becomes virtue
Rotate the ball of the pen watch me spin circles
When I’m back in up in the Benz I know the heinsight gonna hurt you
From Where they keep a 38 and enough product there to serve you
You Better be awake for all damage that this verse do
I’ll tell you when to sleep I set the bar and the curfew
You better be awake for all the damage that this verse do
I’ll tell you when to sleep I set the bar and the…
Just Say action and watch the stunts
I don’t ever feel the pressure lil bitch I’m smoking runts
Hit the backwood do some dubs
I Always show the difference from what it is to what it was
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My hands hold my head i know my neck can’t hold my body
She holds me while I cry I hold her back and say I’m sorry
Put evertthing on hold i let that bottle hold me hostage
Hold a lighter to my lips i held the bottom of my pockets
Can’t get a hold on my life
clawing on the edge I hold my breath and wait for light
Can’t get a hold on my life
clawing on the edge I hold my breath and wait for light
My hands hold my head i know my neck can’t hold my body
She holds me while I cry I hold her back and say I’m sorry
Put evertthing on hold i let that bottle hold me hostage
Hold a lighter to my lips i held the bottom of my pockets
Hold me please hold me forever
Let it hold me even tighter when I can’t hold myself together
Hold me please hold me forever
Let it hold me even tighter when I can’t hold myself together
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Need retribution for my confidence
I been down so long I deserve to be a narcissist
Out here fucking broke like the shit my dads condom did
sayin… Noone asked for this shit
But we give it all we have so we can brag for a bit
I put pen to a pad til my taxes exempt
Lord knows they’ll let you rot til you pay for preservatives
Silicone in they titties and a vote for conservatives
Click like for the bouguea
Build the pedestal for new gods
Fetishize the rich while they pretend they’re like you are
Aren’t they so relatable
In cars we can’t afford with bodies that’s unattainable
It makes me wonder what’s the worth of an artist
Not the worth of celebrity but a verse from the starving
They’re writing for a market I’m writing to be honest
whats retribution for my confidence
They sell you a dream like success is just common sense
living through a screen
I wanna be heard but they need me to be seen
Damn
if I gotta fuckin do that
I’ll make my own way and tell these bitches all to move back
This retribution for my confidence
I’ll take my chump change and proudly fucking pocket it
This retribution for my confidence
I been so down I deserve to be a narcissist
My confidence is retribution
When a man go ape shit that’s evolution
Spliff in the morning, with some pressed juices
This job got me sitting at a desk clueless
Improve-every time the pen move
Make the best music I can
Swinging at bat, I was slinging that pack
For a old pair of retros, bringing that back
King of that trap, only speaking on facts
Im a needle in a haystack, scheming on wax
slick talk like a politician
it’s a lot to handle he ain’t even wanna listen
I was stuck in the wrong position, felt like the longest mission
Spark ignitions, flow like Ferrari engines
I never had time for it...
product of my environment-who you calling victim nigga
My time now, see the clock tick different
Check the box score, know it struck pain in the ops core
To see me winning, easy finish
The way I storm capital, I could breach the senate
Your speech is timid, flawless-he diminish
Green incentive, laugh like an evil villain
Run up in his crib like a thief, I’ma creep
Write my name on the wall, you can see he did it
Ima cheat sheet hip hop encyclopedia, all bogus I don’t like the media
I know we all wish our lives were easier
But what do I know? I’m a motherfucking narcissist
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9. |
summertime sweaters
02:33
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happy or apathy I can’t tell the difference
I’d have to look at ends and means to see that image
What option was better
Never said This is great
It’s like lm selling sweaters
When it’s a hundred and thirty eight
just tryna do what I love
Would You still have the dream if You knew what it was
Would you be where I be with no sound of buzz
Probably postin online like man i give up
You do you though
Way Back in 06 I was writin in a notepad
Same one I would go to use for my first raps
And I ain’t even gon lie to you man that shits trash
But it gave me what I ain’t have
EBT fillin my stomach
Back and forth to homes where I never felt wanted
Kept my eyes to the floor and my head near a summit
Told myself break a leg came off stage with some crutches
Hopped on a high horse told that bitch get to runnin
I Had to find a mount when they said I was nothing
Just surviving the drought kept my tear ducts flooded
I put… my life in this pen
And if I lived another life I would do it again
For sleepless nights nightmares that won’t end
You ain’t gotta believe that Imma cop me a Benz
I’m just sewing another sweater
Around those who do the same
And I know it makes me better
Cus I know the ways I’ve changed
Yeah I know it makes me better
Cus I know the ways I’ve changed
Break me down fill me up with empty promises
You scared of failure so you by mine commenting
We teach our kids that happiness comes with profiting
more than half of mine was found while processing
I saw memories in off keys
Scream im on a roll spit a verse that was off beat
Didn’t matter what it did for me
You only askin if it’s gettin cheese
I understand your concerns
But you aren’t here to talk I found a spot for my words
when ashes become ash it don’t matter what I earned
Still sewing another sweater
Around those who do the same
And I know it makes me better
Cus I know the ways I’ve changed
Yeah I know it makes me better
Cus I know the ways I’ve changed
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10. |
windowsill
01:14
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I want you to watch me like I’m paint drying
Notice me like the dust behind your fridge
I find it too easy for me to stay silent
I fear the others might know that I exist
I’m a fly on the wall no one can bug me
been hurt by spread arms no one can touch me
Love me or not I won’t let you love me
Give me your thoughts they’ll give me nothing
Imma isolate fuck it bro I don’t need a mate
I need forty proof and a seat lets inebriate
Don’t have to look my demons in the eye if I aint seeing straight
I wish I was a fly just existing on the day to day
Let me die on your windowsill without a name
Let me die on your windowsill without a name
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Corey Loveless Ithaca, New York
Corey loveless is a Upstate NY Hip-Hop artist who’s introspective and versatile music provides a personal peek into the unique perspective that his life has provided him.
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